
I've been walking around in a sort of daze these last few days. It began on Sunday actually. During the evening service, Pastor John asked the church to receive God's love as He poured it out. I knew Jesus was there, I opened my heart and gosh! I felt such an overwhelming outpouring of love. The next day I was watering the garden. I was chatting with Jesus and He said something funny, I laughed and I suddenly realized, 'God is in love with me'. I have to be frank and say, I don't know how to react to this. There is no human expression that I have expressed so far that comes close to expressing what this means to me. At first I was filled with this incredible joy, then I realized how much I had been missing out on before, then the idea that none of us really gets this hit me, then the intense desire to share this truth with everyone took over, then I realized that everyone already knows this, at least we know the words, we know what it means but ...you know... we just don't know this do we?. Think about it, if someone awesome, all powerful and all wonderful were to fall head over heals in love with you, wouldn't you just flip out? Why aren't we all flipped out about the fact that God loves us with a passion like no one else? What don't we get here? On the one hand it is God who is in love with us and on the other hand it's not some feeble love we're talking about either. The best version of human love that exists,' Romeo and Juliet' that kind of stuff comes nowhere close to the depth and passion of God's love. Wow! I'm so into getting this. I want nothing else. That line in Tom Read's (worship leader at the Vine Christian Fellowship) song, "when my Jesus died for me". That's exactly who He is, My Jesus. He is your Jesus, Our Jesus, the world's Jesus. He died for us all because He loves us so deeply. There is possession in that phrase. I love it. It's incredible, it touched my heart when I first heard it. I know Jesus likes it when I refer to Him as mine.
I know I don't fully comprehend God's love for me yet (I'll be a lot more like Jesus if I did), but I know I can. Abraham knew it, David knew it, Jesus knew it and He said I would too and I'm determined to know this love. Lord, I'm crazy about you. Bonkers, absolutely bonkers about you. I want you to know that and I want everyone to know that. You are our love and you love us with an intensity that we don't know how to handle. But I know you'll help us Father. We are your bride Lord, your first love. It's mindblowing Father, but oh! so so so fantastic.




















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